Smoothemuse

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I’ve got so little time left in high school, and I really am going to miss it.  It scares me so much that I’m leaving the bubble that is my school, and it scares me so much that I’m going to be finished with a place that I’ve known for the past  6 years.  I’m not going to see these people anymore.  In the past couple years, I’ve decided that I’m good to go, but now, when it actually matters because I actually am leaving, I’m scared and upset.  Everyone keeps telling me I’m moving onto “bigger and better” things, and that I’m just moving forward - but I don’t think that I want to move forward yet.

The future is scary.

Where is my Neverland?

I’ve been explaining this emotion to people for months now, and there are very few who feel within the same vein. I’m glad you do. Of course it will never be the same, because we’ll never be in a situation where we’re literally required to be in their presence every weekday for months on end. Ever again. It’s going to be hard to come to terms with it, but like all feelings, we will feel them, and then they will begin to digress. I know that on the last day of classes, I’m going to experience a whirlwind of emotion. It will be a mixture of sadness, already missing people…and also excitement and freedom. I don’t know, though, how I will handle this emotional package. While, again, it will never be the same…at least we’ll have facebook and the info we put in each other’s yearbooks to keep in touch with our class. Though there will be many who disappear after a few years, the ones who we are closest with—-those are the ones we won’t allow to fade away. We may even become friends with people we never were very tight with…in an effort to hold on to pieces of the beginning of our life. We’ll all be growing at the same rate, and acknowledging the flow of time. As long as we keep meeting new people to love, laugh and share with, we’ll be fine. I know that much. As Spock said…Live Long and Prosper. =)